On blowjobs

Over the weekend We/we had some of the most intense sex in the history of our relationship (almost 8 years old now). One thing that Goddess almost never does is lower Herself to perform a blowjob on me. Oh, early on in our relationship, when we were initially exploring each other She went down on me a couple of times, i think just to test my reactions. But that was like 7-8 years ago and She has never displayed any interest or enthusiasm for that act ever since.

Until this weekend.

We had a wonderful weekend of hot passionate sex and out of the blue on Saturday night, in the throws of passion, She decided to sit on top of me, Her back to my face. At first i was not certain what She was up to, and was so out of my mind with arousal anyway that i was not thinking clearly. Then suddenly i see Her back arch and Her head descend and boom, i feel Her warm, wet tongue swirling around the head of my massive hard on, then gentle sucking, on and on again for about 3-4 minutes. i began humping and struggling for self control, luckily Her siting on me helped to keep me down.

My Goddess, what a sensation, all the pleasure centers of my mind were being hit at the same time, hard.

Then it was over, She pulled Herself up, turned around, smiling evilly, and gave me a deep passionate kiss, just so i could taste a little of myself on Her moist lips.

I was edging so hard right then i almost lost it completely. Another delicious, sweet torture.

Now I’m conflicted when it comes to blowjobs. On the one hand, like most males the sight of a beautiful Woman passionately licking and sucking an excited, desperate cock is incredibly hot. Also the sensations of being the receiver of Her hot, wet mouth and tongue is one of the most amazing experiences life has to offer.



But.

i really don’t enjoy the site, that staple of mainstream male oriented porn, of a Woman, naked, kneeling before a males massive arousal, sucking on him like Her very life depended on it. As if his cock was life itself for Her. The male grabbing Her head, forcing his sex all the way into Her mouth, holding himself there until She is gagging. i find this very demeaning to Women. In my mind no Women should lower Herself into such a submissive position before a male and perform that act in such a degrading fashion.

This is pure male fantasy and i don’t think too many mature, modern Women are fans of that image either (there has been some debate regarding this act among teens but I’ll save that discussion for another time).

None of the Women i have been with in my life would ever do such a thing, not in a million years. If i were to ever suggest it or try to pressure them for it i would be put in my place in an instant i am sure, if not tossed into the street.

With my Goddess, She very, very rarely puts Her beautiful lips and mouth to my cock. When She does it’s done only on Her terms.

Her performing oral sex on me is always on Her terms.

It is rarely given.

i can never see Her do it. She has never once allowed me to see Her place Her mouth upon my sex. i feel it but can only ever imagine what it looks like.

She always sits atop me in a superior position, sometimes my wrists are bound to the bed posts.

It is always brief, too brief in my mind, but i accept anything She chooses to give as a wonderful gift.

She never allows me to cum this way, not ever.


In reality She does it in a way i find beautiful. i never feel any power over Her when She does this. Just the opposite actually as She takes me completely under Her spell and inflicts unspeakable pleasure on me which only makes me even crazier for Her, reinforces my lust and makes it clear that all the pleasure i receive is a gift from Her and is Hers to give, withhold and control.

Making me taste myself on Her mouth is just another way She turns the act into one humiliating to me. The first time She did this to me i actually cringed and tried discreetly to avoid Her kiss. A little hangup She easily noticed and used as an opportunity to humiliate me and enforce Her will upon me. Now i never resist Her mouth and the opportunity to literally taste my desperation for Her.

She makes me weak all over.